CONFUSE.

argh. that's the word. fucked up word. WHY MUST TP CALL ME?! argh.

i was so so so prepared to go down to NYP tommorow to comfirm that i am in that sch. AND this morning, tp called me to go down for an interview. -.-" just when i already lost all my hopes in getting into that sch. AND I DID HATE THAT SCH FOR NOT LETTING ME IN AT FIRST. how much i really hated the thought of TP. but their design sch is really good. like it's very well known and all. yet NYP just had that course this yr. so i'll be their first cohoot (spelling wrong i think). so it's really confusing. it's not the distance. it's the quality that they have. and bing is in NYP. which makes it even harder for me to decide. gosh. if only god had shown me like a light to the path which he wants me to take. ):

i've collected all my art work from sch. i am prepared to talk a lot during the interview. but. i still cant decide. my mama got so happy that TP gave me a chance to go there. i said i'm not really very interested. she said: "why? the sch is nearer. why u wana go so far for?" i was stunned for a moment. not knowing what to say. it was because all that filled my mind was NYP, huibing, and my good friends. ):

now pls, some one. help me.

downtrodden,
beckk.

loving you long time 3:31 PM