sch has been so draining... like hell.

you know seriously, i have been looking so forward for art lessons, cause that's all i do best with. and TODAY's art lesson was just an utter mess. For the first time in my life someone DOESNT appreciate my work. like wth right. i used to like get so much praises, get top in class for art, get best in art and design and all that shit. but today, it comes down to NOTHING. argh. how disappointed i was with myself and how shittyfied i felt with myself. i felt like DYING. -.-" seriously depression la. but however, just a mgs from bing i feel so so so much better! (: thanks dear! and at least i ask JK wth is the problem with the drawing. and i felt so so much better.

HOWEVER, my anger has once again exploded. CAUSE, my sister, who is very helpful indeed, helped me with my drawings. and you know how high JK expections are right, i got so bloody pissed off that she touched my work that i was drawing halfway! I mean like i wanted to be precise and to be as perfect as possible in my work to show that i am talented. so of course i didnt want anyone to touch my work. if it's like an unimportant work or smth i'll be more than happy. BUT THIS IS THAT FUCKER'S WORK. so my patience for his work are limited. so pls, god, show me some improvements pls.

okay. poly life pass damn fast. like seriously. the time, the days, and the weeks. at the moment i have plenty of assignments. so it's fucked up for poly right now. argh.

but i still have a sunshine to cheer me up when i am down and that is you bing! (:

love,
beckk.

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