decided to throw aside those sedimental songs and to listen to my chemical romance.

been feeling really down. havent been eating. no appetite. whenever i think of it. i dont think of anything else, i just think of it. even when i'm cutting a paper, i think of it. even when i'm in the shower, i think of it. even when i am listening to someone, i am thinking bout it.

see the importance?

i eat halfway also feel full. i put down my bowl and walk away. do my hw, it's with no effort. so i throw it aside too. and now, i'm stuck with my phone. waiting for you. waiting for you. waiting for you.

what i bitch i am. i blame myself. i am the idoit.

just when i think i am strong, i am not. i am very bad at dealing with things emotionally. although all the time i seem happy.

i have practically no mood for anything. i cant sleep too? what should i do when my head is all filled with suicide thoughts?

i have to be understanding. i have to be there. i have to learn from my mistakes. i want to be there when u want me. cause i want you. I HAVE TO BE STRONG.

miss you miss you miss you. like i always do when i'm not with you. it's torturing.

beckk.

loving you long time 8:57 PM