i wonder why people keep viewing my blog although i thought to myself, i wont blog anymore.

since the viewership is high, i shall continue blogging. (:

it shall be the life of a dull soul ya. so it's still your choice if u still want to read. (:

anyway, i've never been more emotional until now. is it because i am getting older hence feelings tend to get even deeper? i've never took a relationship so seriously in my life. and i am so ready to settle my life just with you. even when the world would want to turn their back against us.

but something just seems so wrong. "stupid", "yes". gosh. it keeps running in my head. i keep pondering over the past. is it wrong for me to think of the past? should i move on? but i cant accept it yet. i cant do this, i cant do that. sigh.

i feel empty and blank. would poly change a person's life? to me, to a small extent only.

this is dumb, i look forward to something which i know i can never get enough of.

i would still love you.

beckk.

loving you long time 6:08 PM