It's frustrating to be doing a poster on "why should a friend pick you to be their bestfriend?". like wtf?

first thing that got into my mind was that, "my bestfriend left me". so how can i possibly find a bestfriend? secondly, i dont want a bestfriend anymore because it's scary. thirdly, i dont like the word "bestfriend".

sigh. although i have many friends, i dont feel that i have a friend who i can call and turn to when i'm down. except, you-know-who. but you-know-who would not always be there for me. so, omg, this whole feeling sucks.

Moving on..

So yesterday it was juliana's and angela's birthday. so HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO THE 2 OF YOU! (:

went to marine clove at east coast to the KTV there to celebrate angela's birthday. Smoky, drinks and loud music. Not exactly my favorite. ESP the cigerettes. the drinks at least mix with green tea or coke. but i didnt feel like drinking. loud music with unknown people singing. some sang well, some were thumbs down. felt uncomfortable cause i didnt know like 3/4 of the people there. but anyhoo, i did have a sort of enjoyable time. (: maybe it's because you* were by my side all along.

MANY HOMEWORK TO BE DONE. hate painting, hate Model making. fuck it.

beckk.

loving you long time 12:01 AM