there's been too much happening and too much on my mind. i dont know how to explain or how to start. i'm just confuse on what i've become.

not prepared to read a emo blog? than pls just skip this.

i like to be happy. i really do. and it feels so much better when i see you laugh and smile so naturally. it really feels so god damn good. like all my worries has been put aside. but where is it? where has that smile gone too?

girl, you're my one and only. the girl that got me head over heels for you. i did all my romantic cast aways with you. i did all my best just to make you feel special. dont you feel special anymore? why cant you see we have more happy times than the down side. dont numb your feelings away.. will you?

i know i cant be the most perfect suitor for you. but i still do my best in everything just to make you feel right. i was there for you when you needed someone to talk to. i want to be there for everything that you do.

maybe my words or action hurt you too deep till you couldnt take it. but girl, you know i'll always love you. i've never said i would ever let go. maybe this is what you want, for me to learn this lesson for the pain i've caused you. and i do deserve that.

my tears have run dry. maybe it's time for my heart to die.

Girl, I would love you till the end of time. if my selfishness caused you pain, i would gladly walk away, siliently.

beckk

loving you long time 8:11 PM