i feel so afraid in things that i do now. like somehow, someday, things would just back fire once more. it's the feeling of pain. pain in the chest, pain in the eye, everything.

i hate it when i cry and i cant say anything out of my mouth just to feel better. i hate it. ):

when will this pain go away and all my worries could be lesser than before? is that the only way i could turn to? shit.

and oh my, fengxian is going away to study? that made me upset too! ): xian, i'll miss you like crap pls! pls pls pls take care of yourself k.

beckk.

loving you long time 4:04 PM