this is a depressed post. so if ur not curious to know, dont bother reading.

i cant explained how low i am feeling. the feeling of feeling wrong. like as though i was born the wrong way. i dont mean to hurt my mum man. seriously. i just wish she didnt touch it or even pick it up to read it.

looking at her pretending nth happened hurts me. Because i know she ask my sis about it. means she's bothered the way i am bothered. look, i dont want to change the way i am. because i am happy this way.

why must such things happen? why didnt i throw my things or put my things aside properly? why must i hurt my mum this way when i dont even mean to make things like this.

I hope this torture would be over like soon. i cant take it anymore.

and to eunice, thank you really. for being just the bestest friend who guide me on what i should do. really. i was so shaken by the fact that i just couldnt think. but thanks to your lil ways of cheering me up and helping me think things through, i really appreciate that fact. (:

and to bing bing love.i know i am always so sensitive to you. that's cause ur really important. i really thank you for cracking up jokes to make me feel better. and to tell me things logically too. i appreciate you hearing me out and to listen too. (:

i hope time can heal all wounds.

beckk.

loving you long time 7:23 PM